I had a long day today. After work I went to the gym for a quick workout with my parents and husband. I worked out for about 45 minutes and then headed to get my echo-cardiogram done. It was kind of creepy to see your own heart beating on the screen. I also got to hear it beat. I go back to the cardiologist on Wednesday the 9th for my results. I hope to get good news. After leaving the cardiology office I went to my acupuncture session. He wanted to put a pin in the bottom of my foot to help with my kidneys, I told him no way because I am so ticklish and sensitive on the bottom of my feet. Strangely, I have no bottom letting him put a pin in my head. Now I will start going to the acupuncturist every two weeks. Tomorrow after work, I have another counseling session to help with some of the stress I have been dealing with since Patrick is going to be out of a job for the next few weeks. I am going to weigh in tomorrow only to see if the water weight has come off, I would like to be back to 357 at least.
I’m not sure what to write about tonight, I am actually very tired and am considering going to bed early tonight after another back rub from my husband. I’ve just had a busy day and didn’t even get home until 7 this evening after leaving for work at 8:30 this morning. I think I am going to call it a night and will try my best to write a good topic for tomorrow.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Do not overrate what you have received, nor envy others. He who envies others does not obtain peace of mind.” ~Buddha
Today was trick or treating in my hometown where my parents still live. Patrick and I passed out candy for my parents while they made a Halloween themed dinner. We had over 275 kids come by for candy, we actually ran out of candy a half hour early. I, myself, had a non scale victory today by not eating any candy. For dinner with my family we had a Halloween themed dinner. It was yummy. Now Patrick and I are back home blogging and probably heading to bed early. I have a big day tomorrow, after work I have my echo-cardiogram. I am kind of nervous, I hope they don’t find anything wrong, I won’t know the results for about 2 weeks when I go back the cardiologist for the results. At least after my echo-cardiogram I get to go to the acupuncturist to relax. Going to keep in short tonight because I am kind of getting sleepy, it’s been a busy week and I have a busy day tomorrow. Just waiting for Patrick to finish blogging and then he is going to give me a back rub, I love my husband.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow.” ~Doug Firebaugh
I decided to blog early today since I am going out with my husband and family this evening. We are dressing up in costumes and heading downtown to walk around and watch others in costumes. It’s always a fun night. Patrick and I didn’t even wake up today until 12:30 in the afternoon. After that Patrick and I went thrifting to look for some medical scrubs for Patrick for his nursing assistant classes. We found him 2 pairs of scrub pants and 1 scrub top all for $6.50! He just needs one more top and he will be set. The only thing I got was a pair of warm knee high socks to wear this evening. We are just going to hang out the apartment until about 7:00pm, then we will take bathes and start getting ready to go downtown, we are going to my parent’s house around 9:00pm.
I actually posted on my Facebook status today that life is good even though things aren’t perfect. I also realized life will never be perfect, for me or anyone else because life isn’t meant to be prefect. Your life is what you create. You can spend your whole life trying to “find yourself,” only to realize too late that you are the one that creates yourself. I am so glad I have realized this before turning 30 in a year and a half. I have have my whole adult life to create me. The me that I want to be.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “This life is worth living, we can say, since it is what we make it. ~William James
I had an awesome day today, work was good, got a lot accomplished. The kids at the school I work at had their “Harvest Parade” today and many of them dressed up in costumes. It was cute to see them in costume! After work, Patrick and I went to the cardiologist for my appointment. They are sending me for an echo-cardiogram this coming Monday. They are going to see me back in two weeks to go over the results. I also had blood work done after the appointment today. I’m hoping for all good news from these tests. Good news with our cat today. He went for his monthly weigh in and he is up 7 ounces this month! He now weighs 10 lbs 8 ounces! This is awesome because when he was ill he had dropped down to 7 lbs. Maybe Rowan will be able to come off his medications soon. This evening, Patrick and I drove to Mansfield which is about an hour from us to go through the haunted prison experience. We had a great time, it was kind of scary, at least to me, Patrick just laughed at everything, not much scares him. It was definitely scarier than the Fear Forest we went too last month. I had been to the prison in 2008 I believe for a ghost hunt. I was over 400 lbs at the time and had a real hard time getting around. Today I had no problem at all and was able to do the stairs with no problems. Another non scale victory to add to the book. This weekend is going to be fun, tomorrow night is the big Kent Downtown Halloween event. Everyone dresses up and walks around downtown. I will probably have no problem walking around downtown this year, that will be the first time in awhile. On Sunday, Patrick and I are passing out candy at my parent’s house since we don’t have trick or treaters at our place. Then we are having dinner with my family after we pass out the candy. My mom is having a Halloween themed dinner.
As I was driving home this evening with Patrick, I realized what a great life I have. I can’t believe that for the first time in a long time I am actually happy, even though circumstances aren’t ideal right now, life is going good and only getting better. I wish I had felt this way at my counseling appointment yesterday, I could have saved myself a session of crying. But crying is a good release sometimes. Crying can feel good and be good for you, it’s best not to keep everything inside all the time. Like I have said before, it’s hard to have a smile on your face all the time. Crying is only a problem when you are crying all the time, which I have done before. But I have also been at points in my life where I lacked the emotion to cry because I was so depressed. I hope I never return to that place ever again.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears once in a while, so that we can see Life with a clearer view again.” ~Alex Tan
So apparently not taking your water pill all week makes you gain 4 lbs. I am a little upset only because I feel like I am going to be on these water pills forever. I know that 4 lbs isn’t really weight, it’s just water weight because I eat right and exercise. I only gain weight when I don’t take the water pill. So I guess it’s back to taking the water pill tomorrow, I might as well move into my bathroom. Tomorrow I am going to the cardiologist to make sure I am not retaining water around my heart. Maybe they know why I am retaining water. My primary care doctor doesn’t know and I sure don’t know. I hope there is nothing seriously wrong with me. Work was busy and went quick. My counseling appointment after work was emotional because I saw the 4 lb gain and am a bit stressed about Patrick having no job at the moment. I know things will work out, but it’s just stressful to deal with at the moment. I am going back to the therapist next week just to talk and not fall back into depression. Tomorrow is the end of the work week, thank goodness. I am ready for the weekend. Tomorrow evening Patrick and I are driving to Mansfield to go to the Ohio Reformatory all done up as a haunted prison. I am sure I will be scared, but Patrick loves this stuff.
I need to keep my eye on the prize, I will succeed eventually. It takes time and hard work, if I could just not have a problem with the time concept. I finally have the hard work part down.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “So be sure when you step, Step with care and great tact. And remember that life’s a great balancing act. And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and ¾ percent guaranteed) Kid, you’ll move mountains.” ~Dr. Seuss from “Oh, the Places You’ll Go!”
Sorry for the lack of a blog last night, I did not get home from my evening out until almost 11:30 last night, by that time I was very tired and still needed to take a bath. Yesterday evening, my brother’s girlfriend and I went to a glamour party for Mary Kay called Girl’s Night Out. We got to try products and learn proper ways to apply makeup. I got free hand cream and water proof mascara. Her and I are actually going to have our own glamour party in a few weeks, should be fun. After the event was over, my brother’s girlfriend, her sister, Patrick, and I went out to get a bite to eat at Applebees. My brother is out of the country again so he wasn’t able to come with us. Work has been going fine. After work this afternoon, Patrick and I went to gym and worked out with my parents. We got back not too long along, for dinner we had a brown rice Greek style salad that Patrick made. Decided not to go to my big support group this evening because they are talking about plastic surgery which is something I don’t think I will ever have. It depends on how much loose skin I end up with when/if I reach my ideal weight. Tomorrow I have a relatively easy day, just going to work and then a counseling session with my therapist. Next week, I start yoga with my little support group and my sister will be joining me.
I will be weighting in tomorrow, I am a bit nervous that I haven’t lost or something because I haven’t taken the water pill every single day because some days I just had too much going on and it wasn’t going to be convenient to be always running to the bathroom. Also I have been having severe gas pains and bloating the past few days. I am just afraid the scale is not going to show any loss or worse a gain. But I have been eating well and exercise, so who knows. I really need to learn not to focus on the numbers on the scale so much.
Honestly the scale only tells you how much you weigh, not how much you’re worth. We as weight loss surgery patients and other people trying to lose weight do not need to become obsessed with the number on the scale every time we are on it. Through somehow we have let this “number” rule and ruin our whole lives. You and I are so much more that a number on the scale. We need to remember that we are so much more important than that.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.” ~Thich Nhat Hanh
Well today was definitively a day of changes. Patrick decided to quit his job at the security company this afternoon, they were going to give him a new crappy schedule and he would have had to drive even further to work for the same amount of money. He has decided to take a nurse aide training class at a nearby nursing home. A job as a nursing assistant will actually bring him more money than the security job was and he can work at a number of nursing homes close to home. He starts the classes on November 7th and they run until the 18th. I think it will be sexy to see him in scrubs! So for the next two weeks he’s just going to be taking it easy (maybe he can clean the apartment again, hint, hint.) After I got home from work I went to the acupuncturist for my treatment. Patrick went with me and got to watch what it is like. Then we went to the urgent care center so he could get a physical for the nurse aide class and a TB test. We were there for over 2 hours. We would have gone to our regular doctor but they couldn’t get us in during the next two weeks with any doctor there. Got to work tomorrow and then going to the gym afterwards with Patrick. Tomorrow evening, my brother’s girlfriend and I are going to the Mary Kay Girl’s Night Out for my free facial and glamour. I am excited to go.
I had a huge non scale victory last night, I wish I could share it with you, but it’s way to personal. Let’s just say, it’s one of the biggest non scale victories I have had since surgery.
I am surprised that I am not freaking out about the fact that Patrick has no job at the moment, I am actually excited about the future laying ahead and know that everything is going to work out.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” ~Eleanor Roosevelt
Patrick and I have hit a slight bump in the road. He is more upset about it than I am. His boss is moving him to a different post where he thinks he will fit in better. That’ s all we know right now. Patrick has to go to the main office tomorrow morning to get his new assignment. Patrick is worried about it being less hours and not first shift anymore, he knows none of this for a fact, this is him fortune telling the future. I told him it is not a good idea to worry about tomorrow, that he just needs to today. Tomorrow is never a guarantee so why worry about it so much to the point where you are ruining today? Take life one day at a time. Those of you who know me personally probably have a hard time believing that I am the one that just wrote that. It has taken me years to come to follow that. Believe me I still think about the future, but not as much as I used too and I don’t dwell on it either. I’ve been trying to cheer Patrick up all weekend. It’s not really working. Last night we went to the racetrack with his parents, he seemed okay then, but this morning he was upset again. I am making him homemade spinach lasagna for dinner and we are going to carve pumpkins this evening. I hope this makes him feel better. At the racetrack we didn’t win any big amounts, we ended up breaking even pretty much, only out $3.00. This afternoon we are just lazing around the apartment and doing some laundry. Tomorrow is back to work after a 3 day weekend. After work tomorrow I am having my weekly acupuncture session that I had to cancel last Friday because I need to get my car fixed. That should help me relax, not that I am stressed too much right now. Mainly worried about Patrick being upset. Patrick is rarely upset, not sure why he has been it so hard by this, it’s not like he is fired he just moving posts. He doesn’t like uncertainty much. I can’t tell if the cat is happy to see us back or not. He has been whining at us every since we got home an hour ago, not sure what his problem is or what he wants. He’s crazy.
Speaking of bumps in the road, what do you do went you hit a bump in the road on your weight loss journey? Do you give up and turn around and head back to your bad habits? Or do you jump as high as you can over that bump and move forward? If you had asked me this question this same time last year, I would have told you that I would turn around and give up, because what’s the use in trying if I am always going to be hitting bumps in the road. Now I continue to march forward right over that bump and keep going. A journey is a long winding road with plenty of bumps in it. But at the end of that road is happiness and success. But you can only reach the end if you keep moving forward with your head held high.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Life is one big road with lots of signs. So when you riding through the ruts, don’t complicate your mind. Flee from hate, mischief and jealousy. Don’t bury your thoughts, put your vision to reality. Wake Up and Live!” ~Bob Marley
First of all, I had another non scale victory, I wore jeans this morning to do my errands. I haven’t worn jeans in a million years, I honestly don’t remember the last time. These jeans actually used to be too small and now they are actually a bit big, they keep sliding down so I didn’t wear them on my evening hike with the WLS support group. I had a great evening with the group on an evening hike and had a chili dinner afterwords. We had some great food and good company. Spent the afternoon getting the brakes on my car fixed and then hit the gym with my parents and stopped by to visit my grandmother. I am seeing a cardiologist on Friday to make sure there is no water around my heart, since my regular doctor is still unsure where I am retaining water.
Honestly, life keeps getting better, I won a complementary facial and glamour along with $10 in FREE products from Mary Kay, I had entered a drawing while I was at my GYN last week, going to a Girl’s Night Out on Tuesday evening to claim my prize.
Tomorrow morning I am attending a workshop for work and then heading to my in-law’s house for the weekend with Patrick. We are planning on watching the horse races tomorrow at the racetrack near their house. I hope we win some money. Going to cut tonight’s post short because Patrick and I have things to attend in the morning. He picked up 5 hours at work in the morning, so he has to be up at 6am. We still need to pack an overnight bag for tomorrow night. There will be no blog tomorrow night because I will be out of town and probably will get back from the racetrack late tomorrow. So I promise to post a nice, long blog on Sunday evening. Have an awesome Saturday and keep following your dreams.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” ~Steve Jobs
Gosh am I glad today is almost over. Work was crazy, I have been rushing to get vision and hearing screenings done for the school by the end of the month, thankfully my supervisor came out and helped me, we kicked ass this afternoon. Since I had a rough day, I decided to not hit the gym this evening. I ended up taking my car into the shop to get an oil change. It also needed two new back tires and new brakes in the front too! I got the tires put on this evening and am going back in tomorrow afternoon to get my brakes fixed. I don’t work tomorrow because the school is closed. I had to cancel my acupuncture appointment for tomorrow so that I could get my brakes fixed. I am going to try to reschedule for Monday after work. I also went to my primary care doctor this afternoon to take about the water weight problem. I purposely refrained from taking it today so that if my ankles and hands were retaining water she would be able to see it. Of course there wasn’t any visible swelling, my heart also sounded normal. She might send me to a vascular doctor to have things looked at. She said to continue on the water pill on the days I need it most. Tomorrow evening Patrick and I are attending a fall hike, chili dinner, and bonfire with one of my weight loss surgery support groups. I bought veggies for a veggie tray and fat free dill vegetable dip to bring.
I had another non scale victory today, I went from a size 12 brief underwear to a size 10 hipster style underwear!!!!! My butt is getting smaller! My dad got be a Wii Fit board and the Wii Fit game to use at home, we found them at a good price pre-owned at Game Stop, plus my husband got 10% off. I am still a bit over the weight limit so it actually won’t let you use the program, but for the price it was and I am only 25 lbs over the limit. Plus Patrick can use it for the time being.
I forgot to mention yesterday that I got my before and after picture for my one year surgery anniversary (which was July 12) from my surgeon’s office. It was amazing to look at the difference in the pictures. Funny thing about it was it said my weight at one year out was 2,374 lb instead of 374 lbs. That would be shitty if someone gained 2,000 lbs from the surgery. They are going to fix it and sent me a new one with the right numbers. My medical assistant said I was very healthy for weighting over 2,000 lbs! I am curious if they do this at 2 years out too, that picture will be amazing.
Good night friends, followers, and fellow bloggers!!!
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome.” ~Booker T. Washington