Some days I am asked how much more weight do you want to lose. For a long time before I accepted myself I would say lots. After coming to terms with my self and my body these past few months I have told myself that my most important health and life goal is to be more than I have ever been before.
I want to be successful in my career, whatever that ends up being. I know that the job I have now is not what I was meant to do for the rest of my life. Is it selling Mary Kay which I have done decently well with for my first quarter. Or is it eventually starting my dream business. I am young, things will work themselves out.
I want to remain as healthy as I can be. Sure I am still a plus size woman but I eat as healthy as I can and I try to exercise. I do a lot more than the world gives me credit for.
I no longer want to be dependent on anxiety medications. I have been getting to the point after being on several anxiety medications for the past year that it is time to go off them and try to see if I can manage my anxiety on my own. I mainly just take things at night so I would like to go off these “sleeping” pills and try something more natural like meditation or Melatonin which has worked for me in the past. I see the doctor on Monday and will voice my opinion then. I know she will be on board with this. The only pill I would like to keep is my Celexa which is my wonder drug. I also think that the 5 different anxiety/sleeping things I am on are hindering my weight loss. This goes along with the birth control I started back on in April. It has really affected my weight with out an bad changes to my diet. I eat better now that I have ever before, but put back 10 lbs in like 2 weeks. My gynecologist today said that it was the birth control. So my husband and I talked and decided that we will be stopping the birth control pill and just use other methods. All these pills are not worth it to me if it is going to hinder my weight loss attempts. I can try to go off these things and see if it helps.
I have come so far in the past 23 months (today) since surgery. It is hard to believe in a month it will be 2 years. The last year has really flown by and I have experienced so many great times that the bad things that have happened have already left my thoughts. I can’t be unhappy about those bad things, I know things happen for a reason, I just wish I know the reason sometimes. But it is just part of my journey and it is better to except the bumps in the road and keep going. Don’t give up on whatever you are working on.
Daily Inspirational Quote: ”Think of all the beauty still left around you and be happy.” ~Anne Frank
