My Personal Weight Loss Surgery Journey To A Healthier, Happier Life And Helping Others.

Monthly Archives: August 2012

School started yesterday, so far so good. I really enjoy the school I am at this year and plan to remain at this school as long as I am in this position. I feel very welcome there already. I am stilling having issues with my neck and headaches so it has made some of the day unbearable. I usually feel good for about a week after I go to the chiropractor. But since insurance doesn’t cover it, I have only been going once a month, but I think that I am going to have to try to go next week, it’s starting to become pretty painful again. Patrick and I are going out of town for Labor Day weekend with my parents and my little brother, although we are all arriving at different times, Patrick and I will be the last to arrive on Saturday afternoon and we will all head home sometime on Monday. I am looking forward to getting away for a few days and being out in the country, we will be down in Oxford, Ohio again where my sister lives. I hope getting away for a few days helps, I feel like my stress just keeps mounting. I had the house clean last Friday and already it looks like crap. Also our bedroom closet keeps coming off track and we can’t get it back on, I really don’t want to call the maintenance guy to fix it, I hate having people in my apartment. Dad, that means I need you to come over and try to fix it first. Last time, we ended up calling the maintenance man but we didn’t even bothering asking my dad, so dad…get over here next week please!

I think that I am going to start a food journal again, I have done one in the past and it seems to help but I never seem to keep it going more than a few weeks, I get easily sidetracked from it and then never go back to it. Last time I food logged, I used myfitnesspal.com, so I think I will try used that again. For those of you who food log, what do you do?  If I just write it on paper I won’t keep up with it, I have a better chance of keeping up with it if I do it on the computer. So tomorrow will be day one of the food tracking until my final week-in for insurance on September 25. I want nothing more than to report back that I was successful in hitting the mark needed to submit to surgery and then I want to be able to report back and says that my surgery is on such and such a day. I want to keep this ball rolling. Other than the final weight in and my endoscopy on the 18th. I am all ready to submit. I completely all the other pre-requirements. My dad and I are going to make a few trips to the gym next week and maybe even play racquetball there and by play I mean, my dad plays and I look like an idiot since I suck at it, but my dad is a beast at it and I know he won’t be crazy rough or anything with me but still I suck massively compared to him. :) We have played in the past and I can never return the ball, I am lucky if I hit it!

I hope to be able to post a blog tomorrow but it might be a little hard. After work I am going to visit an old friend, you may recall that I posted an article about her back in July, she is the jeweler heading to New York fashion week. I haven’t seen her in quite a few years so it will be nice to get together. Then my favorite part of going on a trip, packing, also has to happen tomorrow night as well as feeding my brother’s two cats, one of which is this tiny kitten who is so cute. I can’t wait to play with her. I try to play with his male cat but he never will play with me. Cats are insane, I have been make two baskets to donate to the upcoming Walk From Obesity in a few weeks, I came home from work today and one of the baskets was all over the floor. I honestly don’t know how Rowan, my cat, managed to knock it on the floor. But it had ribbon in it and ribbon equals fun to him so he must have decided that it was okay to play with it. I wish I could spend my life playing with ribbons and such, life would be so much simpler. But I am not a cat and life is not that simple. But I just have got to keep going and maybe one day it will be.

 

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life… as by the obstacles which he has overcome while trying to succeed.” ~Booker T. Washington


 

 

 

Info cards for the bi-weekly support chats! They have arrived and they look awesome! On the back is my name, phone number (for questions, my email address, and this website.

For those of you who attend and would like some to pass out, please email me at bariatricbeginnings@gmail.com with your name and address and I will mail you some!

And you’ll notice today is the 4th Tuesday of the month, so that means if you head over to http://bariatric.oli.us/ at 8:00pm EST, you can get support from me and many other pre and post op weight loss surgery patients from all over. This will be the 3rd chat that we have had and you can mark your calendars for September 11 and September 25 if you can’t drop by tonight. You are welcome to join in at anytime and leave whenever you need to, the chat is here for you! The chat usually runs an hour or so.  I hope to see you tonight! I know I’m excited!

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Happiness is like a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.” ~Nathaniel Hawthorne


Friday’s appointment went fine. I am retaining a bit of water so the scale wasn’t exactly where I would like it but it wasn’t too far off. One month from today is my final weigh in and then we submit to insurance pending that I am at the proper weight. Yesterday I also got to go to my new school that I am working at for this school year. I think I am really going to like it there, the principal and secretary were both really nice and my clinic is so much bigger than I am used to. I am excited to head back to work on Wednesday.

This was Patrick’s weekend to work so I spent the day running a few errands and selling things online. I did well selling things online this weekend and in the past month, it’s my new hobby apparently!

Looking forward to remain on track this next month. I need to met this goal I have set for myself and I am the only person who can get me there…with some help.

Just keep calm and carry on.

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: “We all have our time machines. Some take us back, they’re called memories. Some take us forward, they’re called dreams.” ~Jeremy Irons


Yesterday was filled with tons of pre-op medical tests for my pending gastric bypass. I had an ultrasound of my gallbladder done, blood work, an upper GI swallow (yum, barium!), and I met with my dietitian to go over my current diet. Tomorrow is my second of three appointments for the medically supervised weight loss for the insurance company, so it has been a busy week full of appointments. Today I spent time getting things ready to go set up my clinic at school tomorrow and order business cards for the support chats that I do so that they can be handed out at the upcoming Walk From Obesity and to be shared at the bariatric center.

During my upper GI yesterday I was able to get confirmation that my stomach had not stretched out like so many people have said to me. They looked at my film from the day after surgery and compared it to yesterday’s film and they said it was only marginally bigger, which to me is to be expected after 2 years. But I do not have a full size stomach, so I know that I did not do any damage to the sleeve during my severe depression year right after surgery. I know this means nothing to most people, but to me it makes me feel better and makes me realize that I didn’t f-up as much as I thought I also had.

Right now like mentioned a few days ago, I have been battling my compulsive overeating a bit due to stress and not handling it properly. Today was the first day in the past few weeks where I don’t feel like I screwed up. When I was upset I grabbed apples slices with a bit of peanut butter instead of something unhealthy that I would find or worse make my husband go get me. I planned to go outside and walk around the apartment complex if it got really bad, but so far I have been able to keep it under control. I know that tomorrow I may or may not where I want on the scale, but I still have a month left and it is important that I met the small goal I have set for myself so that I can get my surgery approved. Last night I shared on this blog’s Facebook page something that I found myself saying when it got rough (I wanted to cry there in front of her because I am so afraid of screwing up) after my dietitian appointment yesterday, I said “At anytime when your journey gets hard, remember it is all part of the journey, there will be ups and downs with your weight and in your life. No one said it was going to be easy, but it will be worth it. Don’t jump ship when the waves get rough. Just hold on tight and you will get through that storm.” 

It’s going to work out, I know it.

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Determination gives you the resolve to keep going in spite of the roadblocks that lay before you.” ~Denis Waitley

 

 

 

 


Sorry it’s been a few days since I have posted, was still recovering last night from Sunday morning’s 5K. The 5K went good, it was a much harder and hillier course than the 5K I did in May so I was very happy with my time (54:36) just being 19 seconds slower than my May race. I know it takes me 35 minutes longer than the race winners, but I don’t care. I am out there doing it and that’s all that matters. Some people my size can barely walk and take care of themselves. I can do this, no matter how slow and that’s all that is important to me. I am only losing when I choose not to finish it. My dad and I are planning on running one more 5K at the end of October and then I am done until springtime! Patrick has to work the day of the next 5K we are wanting to run so he gets out of it and I am sure he is happy about that!

I have such a busy day tomorrow. I am having blood work, a nutritional assessment, an upper GI and an abdominal ultrasound in preparation for  the bypass. I can’t wait until we can submit to insurance at the end of September and get a exact date. I have my second appointment for my medically supervised weight loss for insurance on Friday. I like to remind everyone who doesn’t know my story or follow my blog regularly that I am post-op of 2 years sleeve and pre-op bypass. I am NOT having bypass done BECAUSE my sleeve failed!!!  I get a lot of comments and questions to why I am having a second surgery…like “oh the sleeve didn’t work for you?” No it DID..I still lost 65 lbs (and kept it off) to get me to a safer weight to have bypass which was an original idea back in March of 2010.

My body just feels so stressed the last two weeks. I am not sure why, I think I am just getting anxious to go back to work for the school year on the 29th. I had two all day trainings the past few days so I have been busy, but I am just ready for my normal schedule to return. The stress causes me to get anxious and upset easily so it turn I am to eat something unhealthy. I do wish my husband would tell me no sometimes, I know it’s not his fault, but he is the one person who lives with me and needs to be my biggest cheerleader. I know he likes to make me happy by giving me what I want, but sometimes that is the worst thing he can do for me. I have a history of compulsive overeating and still struggle with it so I need help at those times not food. Anyway, I am really trying my hardest to try other things during stressful times rather than food. But a little help and support would be nice too.

Reminder: Next support chat is August 28 at 8pm EST!!! Room is at http://bariatric.oli.us/

5K #2         August 19, 2012                       Planning to be a beast after my bypass and run a 10K maybe!

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Isn’t it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet?” ~L.M. Montgomery


Sorry it’s been a few days since posting. Tuesday night was the chat and last night I was at a support group event. The support chat went great again. You can save the dates for the next three: August 28, September 11, and September 25. Those are all Tuesday and it will be at 8pm EST again, but people are welcome to stop in anytime, we have been going at least until 9pm if not a little after. The room is at http://bariatric.oli.us/.  I have also been busy selling a lot of clothes, that are too big for me now or that I don’t wear anymore, online. I have also bought a couple of cute things including my Halloween costume! I have been selling on a Facebook group called FatToo. I have had nothing but good experiences with it and there are no listing fees like on Ebay. If you are looking to get rid of Size 20+ women’s clothing, request to join the group and start selling. There is also an off shot to sell shoes, jewelry, lingerie, and purses.

New dress purchased from FatToo this week and a fun time with my support group!

Last night, I went to a support group for long-term weight loss surgery patients at a local winery, everyone there is excited for me to have my bypass done. This Wednesday I have an abdominal ultrasound, upper GI swallow, blood work, and nutritional assessment. Friday is my 2nd of 3 visits for the medically supervised weight loss as well as a counseling appointment. Busy week medically! I also have all day trainings for work on Monday and Tuesday, then school goes back on the 29th and I am back to work for good. I worked a little bit the past few weeks covering summer school. I am excited to see my new clinic and get it set up on Friday.

Tomorrow morning, my husband, my father, and I are doing our next 5K. This one is the race at the cemetery in Cleveland. It should be an interesting one. Here is a small artice aboutit: http://clevelandheights.patch.com/articles/lake-view-cemetery-to-host-first-annual-5k. Well Patrick and I will be heading to bed early tonight and taking it easy all day tomorrow. I can’t believe this is my second 5K this year. Most people my size can barely walk. Exactly three months ago tomorrow was my first 5K. Weird that they both fell on the 19th!

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Don’t let the best you have done so far be the standard for the rest of your life.” ~Gustavus Swift

 


I’m gearing for the second weight loss surgery online support chat being held tomorrow evening at 8pm (E.S.T. I’m in Ohio.) Remember we will be at http://bariatric.oli.us/. That is our own private chat room! People are welcome to join in or leave at anytime during the chat, last time we stopped the chat at about 9pm. If you are on Facebook, also consider joining my new weight loss surgery support group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/wlsonlinesupport/. Right now we are at 10 members, the group just started Thursday, so it is still building it’s membership. I am excited to hold the second chat tomorrow! I hope we have just as many people participate tomorrow as we did two weeks ago. If you can’t make it tomorrow, save the date for August 28, same time, same place.

Hope to see many of you then!

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: ”I attribute my success to this – I never gave or took any excuse.” ~Florence Nightingale


Don’t forget I am holding the next weight loss surgery support chat this coming Tuesday, August 14 at 8pm (EST). We will be at http://bariatric.oli.us. I also created a closed (meaning your friend’s can’t see what you post, only members) Facebook group to go along with the chats. It is mainly for people considering weight loss surgery or who have had weight loss surgery. But people with a large amount of weight to lose (who don’t want surgery) are welcome to join if they are interested. I just advise that some topics won’t be of relevance to them. You don’t have to attend the bi-monthly chats to be a part of the group. But if you are someone who attends the chats, make sure to join! It will be a great place to get questions answered and learn new information. Here is the link:www.facebook.com/groups/wlsonlinesupport/.

Not much is new on the personal front. I worked this past week and have one more week of the summer school program I am working,  two days of training, then a week off, and finally back to school for the year. Patrick and I are planning on heading out of town for Labor Day weekend with my family, that will be nice. Patrick works this weekend so I am all alone for most of it. We have been spending a lot of time together these past two days and I swear we fall more and more in love each day. That’s are going good in our marriage again. Stress on both sides can break it down sometimes. But things are good in that area and in others. Work is going to be good, I just have to remember to enjoy it because it is what I have been dealt for now and why be unhappy about it. Life is too precious to dwell on the negatives.

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Learn to enjoy every minute of your life. Be happy now. Don’t wait for something outside of yourself to make you happy in the future. Think how really precious is the time you have to spend, whether it’s at work or with your family.” ~Earl Nightingale


I love how I clicked on one of my referrers that were listed on my stats page, it was someone complaining that my “Freshly Pressed”  blog post from April was terrible and then this person posted a link to it, saying to check out this terrible freshly pressed entry, but they didn’t say why it was terrible. Don’t they realize that posting the link just brings views to my blog? Anyway, I could care less that they didn’t like my post, this blog is mine and I will write and post what I like. Honestly, I think people just love to make comments about other people that aren’t like them. I see it all the time on Facebook. Especially during election season. I am so sick of all the hate in the world. Anyway….

Don’t forget the next chat is next Tuesday, August 14 at 8p EST. Go to http://bariatric.oli.us/ to join in the chat. Remember this is online support for people considering weight loss surgery or who have had weight loss surgery. I invite all people considering weight loss surgery or people who have had weight loss surgery, newbie or old-timer to join us! I want this chat to be a place where WLS patients feel safe in asking questions or asking for advice. I want this to be a positive place where people who feel safe. Please leave any negative criticism towards others out of the chat, positive suggestions are welcome though!

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Be happy. It’s one way of being wise.” ~Sidonie Gabrielle


It was back to work yesterday, working  four hours a day for the next two weeks. It’s a little extra money that I am not used too. Patrick is at work today and tomorrow so I am not going to get to see him too much since he is already gone when I get up for work and he doesn’t get home until around 7:30 in the evening. At least I get to spend most of Thursday and Friday with him, but he is working both Saturday and Sunday when I am off work. I went to the doctor’s office yesterday since I was pretty sure I had a infection and I was right, on some antibiotics now, but I still feel pretty crappy and tired. I can’t wait until I feel better, I need to go work out, I am hoping to go after work tomorrow. I also went to the chiropractor yesterday which really helped my neck, I will go back in a few weeks for an adjustment before the school year begins.

Do you ever have those days were you just feel like you have accomplished nothing with yourself, even though you know that’s not true and you don’t normally think like that? I have felt that way the last two days. Maybe it’s just because I don’t feel well, but I know that I feel like I have failed in the career department. I have had my master’s degree for over five years now and I still have nothing to show for it. I am underemployed and when I do try to get another job, I have been told no after every interview. I relate a lot of it to my size. Who wants an obese  in the front office working or as a health educator even when it is a topic related to safe sex and not nutrition or fitness? I know better than to apply for jobs in those areas even though I am educated to teach those areas. Honestly what does size have to do with my ability to do a job? Everyone who has chosen to employee me have been very happy, thank you all for giving me a chance. My current supervisors are great and very supportive of my current weight loss surgery. I felt completely comfortable of alerting them to my situation since I will be need time off work when the time comes. I know some people would say, well you’re obese so you would call off more. That is not always true and I do not like being looked at and automatically profiled just because of my size. I called off twice last year, once because I was in the emergency with a kidney stone and once because my husband was in a bad car accident. The last one definitively   doesn’t have anything to do with my health. It’s sad that even in 2012, people dislike people that aren’t “normal.” If you are of a different race, religion, ethnicity, sexual orientation, size, etc. you face discrimination in today’s society. We are all human who cares what someone else looks like or who they choose to love. How is any of that hurting your life. Me being obese shouldn’t affect you. I work a job and have my own health insurance, I pay my taxes and don’t sit around on my ass all day like you think I do. I get angry when I am looked at as a second class citizen, plus size people are people too.

August 2005, graduation from college and on to graduate school.
I am still hoping these pieces of paper will get me somewhere.

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: “For every dark night, there’s a brighter day” ~Tupac Shakur



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