It was back to work yesterday, working four hours a day for the next two weeks. It’s a little extra money that I am not used too. Patrick is at work today and tomorrow so I am not going to get to see him too much since he is already gone when I get up for work and he doesn’t get home until around 7:30 in the evening. At least I get to spend most of Thursday and Friday with him, but he is working both Saturday and Sunday when I am off work. I went to the doctor’s office yesterday since I was pretty sure I had a infection and I was right, on some antibiotics now, but I still feel pretty crappy and tired. I can’t wait until I feel better, I need to go work out, I am hoping to go after work tomorrow. I also went to the chiropractor yesterday which really helped my neck, I will go back in a few weeks for an adjustment before the school year begins.
Do you ever have those days were you just feel like you have accomplished nothing with yourself, even though you know that’s not true and you don’t normally think like that? I have felt that way the last two days. Maybe it’s just because I don’t feel well, but I know that I feel like I have failed in the career department. I have had my master’s degree for over five years now and I still have nothing to show for it. I am underemployed and when I do try to get another job, I have been told no after every interview. I relate a lot of it to my size. Who wants an obese in the front office working or as a health educator even when it is a topic related to safe sex and not nutrition or fitness? I know better than to apply for jobs in those areas even though I am educated to teach those areas. Honestly what does size have to do with my ability to do a job? Everyone who has chosen to employee me have been very happy, thank you all for giving me a chance. My current supervisors are great and very supportive of my current weight loss surgery. I felt completely comfortable of alerting them to my situation since I will be need time off work when the time comes. I know some people would say, well you’re obese so you would call off more. That is not always true and I do not like being looked at and automatically profiled just because of my size. I called off twice last year, once because I was in the emergency with a kidney stone and once because my husband was in a bad car accident. The last one definitively doesn’t have anything to do with my health. It’s sad that even in 2012, people dislike people that aren’t “normal.” If you are of a different race, religion, ethnicity, sexual orientation, size, etc. you face discrimination in today’s society. We are all human who cares what someone else looks like or who they choose to love. How is any of that hurting your life. Me being obese shouldn’t affect you. I work a job and have my own health insurance, I pay my taxes and don’t sit around on my ass all day like you think I do. I get angry when I am looked at as a second class citizen, plus size people are people too.
August 2005, graduation from college and on to graduate school.
I am still hoping these pieces of paper will get me somewhere.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “For every dark night, there’s a brighter day” ~Tupac Shakur
