I used to nap all the time (hours on end) when I was depressed and heavier. I used to naps to escape life. I really felt like I need one earlier today since my constant tension headaches have seemed to return but I have this weird thought going in my head that if I take one today that I will start that crazy cycle again which I don’t want . And you certainly can’t fall asleep when you are thinking about that. I never want to return to a life of eating, sleeping and working. That’s not much of a life at all. I mostly enjoy the life I have now and enjoy it more and more with each passing month. I choose no nap today because I don’t even want to test my boundaries at this point. I don’t want to give into that one nap and say to myself “just this one time.” But just one time can start a domino effect. That holds true for eating or any old habit that you’ve gotten away from. I’m afraid of all the dominoes falling that I have worked so hard to set up. You may think to yourself it’s just a nap but to me it was a cop out to get away from my problems back then. I can’t allow that to happen right now, maybe some day but not now, not while I’m still building the life I want. I’ve almost been medication free a year now and I want to make it there without relapse. I’m happy and I don’t want that to go away, right now I use exercise or a hobby as my cop out. I want to keep it that way. So now it’s 6:00pm and I still have my headache. But there was no nap and I am proud of myself for not taking it. I was doing so well with not having headaches anymore but lately they have returned. I think it is due to some increased stress going on in my life right now. I’m still jobless but I had two more interviews yesterday, one of which wasn’t a nursing home! So maybe the week ahead will prove to be a turn around.
I wanted to remind you that The Bariatric Diva and I are trying to gather up a team of walkers for the 2013 Akron, Ohio Walk From Obesity. The cost is $25 to walk, all money goes towards obesity prevention, education, research, and treatment. You also get a shirt and there are plenty of raffle prizes, so bring extra cash. The walk is an easy walk for all abilities and is about 2 miles. You can sign up at http://walkfromobesity.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donorDrive.event&eventID=651 and join the team “Bariatric Buddies.” Non-WLS folks are also invited to participate in the walk! So far it’s just the two of us, so please join us if you can!
I never thought I’d be saying this, but I badly want to sign up for another 5K! Sadly unsure of my job situation at the moment so it will have to wait until I have a job and know what my schedule is going to look like. I would like to do just one more this year.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Whoever you are, whatever your dream, you have to be strong in your head and strong in your heart. Be strong. There’s no quitting in the person who wants it bad enough.” ~Carly Patterson