Sorry I’ve been kind of absent from posting. Most days I’m just trying to keep my head above water. One month ago I was officially diagnosed with fibromyalgia through I have been suffering from the problems since about February after suffering from a life threatening allergic reaction that started to shut down my kidneys and required me to have 11 blood transfusions. I also spent 13 days in the hospital and was out of work for 8 weeks. This year has really been hard. My depression comes and goes, the pain is consent. Two months ago I transferred departments at work as I was having huge problems doing my physical job effective. With my new job I still get to care for people but it is much easier on my body. However the 40 hours a week still exhausts me. Some weeks it’s too much.
Almost every day I ask “why me.” Life was going so well towards the end of last year and in an instance my life changed forever. I used to run and completed several 5Ks. I used to walk a ton. I could do planks and things I could never do before, all that’s a distant memory now. Just going out and walking now is a huge chore and hard on my body, but I try to do it because in the long run it is good for my fibromyalgia. I try to remain positive but some days it’s just too hard.