My name is Jessica, this is my blog and my therapy. This blog has been a lifesaver for me. My personal weight loss surgery journey started on July 12, 2010 when I underwent gastric sleeve weight loss surgery as the first step in a “staged” bariatric surgery process. I had my second step surgery, gastric bypass on January 14, 2013.
I was too heavy back in 2010, I had a BMI of over 65 and my surgeon also felt that I was on too many medications for my anxiety and depression, after being misdiagnosed with bi-polar disorder in 2009 for the bypass to be safe. He said that one day I could have the bypass done if I ever got mentally better. I refuse to believe that I have failed or been unsuccessful with my first surgery. Most other bariatric people are not aware that the sleeve can often be the first step in a two step process. Many are quick to tell me my sleeve failed since I had a second surgery. We did the first surgery, the sleeve, to get me to a better place physically and a better place mentally so that one day when financially able I could undergo the bypass surgery to help get the largest amount of weight off. My sleeve helped me lose about 50 pounds and go off my diabetes medications. Mentally I went from 7 psychiatric medications to being medication free. My sleeve did work, at least to me it did. My first surgery was also a difficult journey. I was hospitalized twice in the first ten months for wanting to seriously hurt myself and used to have to take seven different medications to just barely function. Some how I managed to lose about 50 pounds through all this and I have kept that off and am now living medication free. I think that’s successful considering I could have been six feet under at this point. I’ve now lost over 115 pounds total through the aid of both surgeries and I am losing more each month.
I had this second surgery because I wanted to be healthier, accomplish things I couldn’t do before, start my own family someday, and maybe be taken seriously by society. The people who matter most are by my side and don’t judge me. This is my journey and mine alone.