February 19, 2013
Today was my first day back to work since my surgery on January 14. There was no school yesterday due to President’s Day so I didn’t have to work and we have no school Friday for some reason, so my first week back is only three days long. I guess I picked a good week to return. I had a good day and it was nice to be back into my routine. After work my mom and I went to the gym and I completed week 1 day 1 of my Couch to 5K training program. I am using the C25K – 5K Trainer from Zen Labs that I downloaded on my iPhone. I recommend it and it was free. Click here for the website to get more information and how to get it on your phone. It times your walking and running intervals and chimes and or talks to you when it is time to switch between the walking and running. I choose to keep the voice off since I was at the gym but the chiming let me know when it was time to chance. Day 1 on this trainer was a 5 minute walking warm up and then 8 sets of jogging for 60 seconds and then walking for 90 seconds, then you finish with a cool down walk of 5 minutes. It totaled a 30 minute cardio workout. The trainer says it’s the easiest 5k program at only 3 times a week. My first 5K for the year is scheduled for Saturday, April 13. This will be the 3rd 5K that I have done but hopefully the 1st one that I have run the entire thing. I’m still food logging over at My Fitness Pal, you can friend me if you like by clicking here. It really helps to see what I am taking it and it’s a great and easy way to ensure that I am getting my protein requirements in. I really feel like I’m owning this weight loss
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Nothing could be worse than the fear that one had given up too soon, and left one unexpected effort that might have saved the world.” ~Jane Addams
October 18, 2012
I am happy to announce that I was approved for my gastric bypass surgery this morning! Life is truly turning around for the better. I have to weigh in on Tuesday to see how long I have to do the Opti-Fast pre-surgery diet my surgeon requires, then they send my file on to the scheduler and I can get my surgery date. They are scheduling out into January now so it won’t be until then, but that’s fine, because this is finally happening! I have a special post that I am going to write either tomorrow or this weekend, but I wanted to make sure that I shared the good news with everyone. I am still in absolute shock right now, which is why I am unable to write too much right now, it’s still sinking in!
Daily Inspirational Quote: “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.” ~Eleanor Roosevelt
July 15, 2012
Tonight I am posting an article about a friend, Michelle is a friend of mine and a former next door neighbor. This article shows you that hard work pays off. I am honored that I have a custom made wedding bouquet designed by her that I carried on my wedding day and admire every day. Please take time to read this article about her and maybe pledge a few dollars if you are able.
Stow teacher turned jewelry designer to make debut at New York Fashion Week – Stow.
Remember never give up on your dreams, whatever they are.
Daily Inspirational Quote: ” A successful life is one that is lived through understanding and pursuing one’s own path, not chasing after the dreams of others.” ~Chin-Ning Chu
July 7, 2012
Started my cleanse today instead of yesterday to make it easier to remember. Plus Patrick and I had an actual date night last night and went to dinner and watched the original Star Wars movie at home. We plan on watching the other two original movies tomorrow and having a lazy Sunday at home. Today we went out thrift store shopping with my parents for a few hours and then we came home and just relaxed. We were going to go to the local fireworks today, but it is still in the high 90s and it is very, very hot. It was over 100 today. It’s been like that all week, thankful to have air conditioning this year. The last two summer sucked especially the summer of my surgery, heat and recovering do not mix well, yuck! Made some really yummy lettuce wraps (used Boston/Bibb Lettuce) for dinner with roasted veggies, brown rice, and little tiny shrimp.
As I move through this week and meet with the surgeon on Thursday to take about gastric bypass I am going to keep this little quote in mind….
What dreams do you have that you would do anything for to accomplish?
Daily Inspirational Quote: ”You can’t have any successes unless you can accept failure.” ~George Cukor
June 20, 2012
Sorry for another long hiatus. I promise I am back for good now! I have been weaning off my anxiety medication. Mentally I have been doing great. I did get pretty sick the last few days due to withdrawal symptoms. This morning was the first day that I feel really good physically. I can’t wait to have everything detoxed out of my system for good. Water has been my friend. I have gone from 6 daily medications down to 1 daily medication and 1 as needed. It feels great not to feel like a zombie trapped in my own head. I choose to stay on my Celexa as I feel that pill as been a key part in my recovery. I am keeping the Atvian on hand for when I get a real bad panic attack and am unable to bring myself out of it. So far that hasn’t really become an issue.
Patrick started his new job last weekend at a nursing home down the street from us. He really seems to like it and you can’t beat the minute commute to and from work. He is working 12 hour shift, so he only has to work 3 days a week to be full time and have benefits. But I know he will pick up extra hours since he is just that kind of guy. I found out the school I am going to be placed at next year, it’s another elementary school so I am very happy about that. I enjoy working with that age group the most and wanted to continue to work with that group. With being off work, I have been trying to keep busy with reading and working on my business plan. I actually took my computer and went to Panera to work for a bit today. I felt that if I worked away from home there would be less distraction. I started on my company’s mission statement, goals, objectives, and possible services, I felt like I was back in graduate school!
As much as I enjoy selling Mary Kay to my friends and family, I have come to realize that is not what I want to do with the rest of my life. My business idea has been my ultimate dream and I plan to carry it out. I love the friends that I have made through Mary Kay and am not going to stop selling, I just have realized that my dream is far different from other’s in my unit and that it is better for me to focus my energy on my business goal and my personal life goals. Selling cosmetics was meant for me to bring a little extra money into my pocket, nothing else.
I think I have found out who I really am both in a good and a bad way this past year. I need to be me and not what others what me to be.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.” ~Unknown
June 9, 2012
Today I turned 29 years old. This birthday was different than others in the fact this is the first birthday in my adulthood where I was actually happy to be alive. 2 years ago I was a month away from weight loss surgery and miserable, last year I was just finishing up intensive outpatient therapy and even more unhappy than the year prior. This birthday felt different, for once I was embrace the fact that I was a year older and enjoyed the fact that I got to spend time with my friends and family. Tonight I want to share what life has taught me during my 29 years on this Earth.
Your life counts. You are here for a reason and it is up to you to make the most of your life.
Love your body no matter what. It is your body and it is the only one you will have. Take good care of it.
It’s better to forgive and forget than to hold a grudge for the rest of your life.
It’s okay to cry. Tears clean our eyes and make things clearer for us to see the big picture.
No goal is too big.
Love yourself and others whether or not they love you back.
Remember where you are now is not where you will remain forever. It’s just part of your life journey.
Money doesn’t always buy happiness, sure it makes things easier but it should not be the deciding factor in your happiness.
Inspiration and motivation are everywhere you look.
Don’t live in the past or the future. Live just for today, because that may be all you have.
Dreams really can come true. Hard work does pay off.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny.” ~Albert Ellis
May 23, 2012
Sorry I didn’t blog last night, some Tuesday evenings I attend my Mary Kay training’s and that makes for a late night sometimes. I really enjoy going. I get to see my fellow Mary Kay girls and learn new things for my Mary Kay business as well as major motivation that applies to both my Mary Kay business and my personal life.
So I am taking the first steps to building the company of my dreams. I have picked a name and have started writing a business plan. My goal is to have my business plan completed over the next few weeks. It’s time to fulfill goal number two of the this year, get my business off the ground.
I found another great image of off Pinterest that I just had to share. What a great way to look at weight loss, from now one I am going to say I got rid of X number of lbs instead of I lost X number of lbs. You’ll notice that I stopped sharing my number with you, one reason is because I have stabilized and haven’t had any huge changes in the last several weeks. I actually went up a few lbs after starting birth control pills four weeks ago, but I am already starting to go back down on the scale. My main reason is that to me you can live a healthier life and still be a number that society doesn’t feel is healthy or is scary, because I think the thought of a person of size actually not stuffing their face with McDonalds at every meal is scary to people. Is someone who is 110 lbs, smokes a pack a day, doesn’t exercise, and eats what ever they want really healthier than me? I might be a “scary” number but I eat as healthy as I can, I don’t smoke, I try to exercise regularly, and I am capable of running a huge chunk of a 5K run. Want to tell me again that I am unhealthy?
Daily Inspirational Quote: “When all’s said and done, all roads lead to the same end. So it’s not so much which road you take, as how you take it.” ~Charles de Lint
May 6, 2012
I’m back from my short break from blogging. Patrick and I celebrated our fifth wedding anniversary yesterday and went away for the night. We spent Saturday down in Amish Country and came back this afternoon. We had a great time and were able to see a nice view of the super-moon last night. Friday evening Patrick and I exchanged gifts. I presented him with the scrapbook I made and a wallet with Darth Vader on it. He gave me custom made Snapfish book of pictures from our relationship and a new ring for me to wear as my wedding ring.
I am all about nontraditional and purple so this is amazing. It’s getting sized and I should have it in a few weeks.
It was nice to just have sometime away from busy everyday life. It was nice to be able to sit outside on the deck of our cabin and just talk. Cell phones were shut off and computers were left behind. During the day, Patrick and I did a few different activities, our favorite being the drive-through animal farm.
Me getting to feed some camels.
Sadly tomorrow is back to reality. But that’s okay, that’s what life is, being busy and active. Patrick and I will head to the gym after he gets home from work and then we will go to the health food market. I have decided that I need to eat as healthy as possible if I am going to start my business and be a good role model for my clients. I have gotten rid of everything in the house that is bad for me. I have been eating better the past 10 months, but now it is time to kick it into high gear. Our 5K is on the 19th! We need to be in tip top shape!
Last night Patrick and I talked about my business idea and our plans for the future. The more and more we talk, the less and less we want to have kids. It has always been a dream of mine to have children. But the more and more I think about my long term goals in life, children are not in the picture. There is nothing wrong with not having children, it’s not for everyone. And honestly, I don’t think it’s for Patrick and I once we actually sit down and think about the future. I look inside myself and I don’t see a mother. It’s just not me. There are so many places we want to travel and so many things in life that we want to accomplish. If we every decided that we want a family there is always adoption and we can adopt at 35 or 40 and not feel like my biological clock is ticking away. Plus, I think Patrick would just be happy if we had a house full of cats or a farm with animals in the country.
Life what you make of it, children or not children. Honestly the idea (or even pressure) of having children is societal thing. If you want children, you’ll know it and you will make it happen.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.” ~Carl Gustav Jung
April 22, 2012
Sorry for the short hiatus. Thursday was just a crazy day mentally for me and I decided to not blog mainly because I don’t remember too much of the day again, I honestly don’t remember why I didn’t blog. Friday night, Patrick and I went up to Cleveland for a comedy show and went to dinner and shopping. It was nice to have a little date night. This evening we went to dinners at the house of some friends. Tomorrow is okay to be a day of being at home filing papers and doing laundry.
Tonight, I want to talk about never losing hope about a dream. There are many times in our lives that we get so down about things such as a hitting a plateau in your weight loss or hitting a plateau in whatever challenges you face. When you hit that plateau and you can’t get off of it, it feels like the end of the world. I am currently at another plateau with my weight. For about a week I felt like I was at the end of losing anymore weight and that I am going to remain there forever. After speaking with my counselor and doing a little meditation. I realized that the only way that this journey would be over is if I give up and lose hope. I know that if I want more weight to come off, I have to live my dream like it’s going to definitely going to happen. My dream is no longer an option, it’s mandatory. Success will come to be, I just need to be patient and continue to move in a forward direction.
Society in general like to live life in the fast lane, myself included, although I am trying to move away from that mindset. We want instant gratification with everything that happens in our lives. Especially with weight loss. But you have to remember that slow and steady wins the race. Work slowly and diligently towards your dreams, they will come true.
This post is dedicated to a good friend, don’t lose hope and don’t take your eye of the prize.
Daily Inspirational Quote: “Be thankful for what you have; you’ll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don’t have, you will never, ever have enough.” ~Oprah Winfrey