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Today I saw the home scale move down again! It was nice to see it keep going down. 3 more pounds down on the home scale and I will be hitting another milestone, maybe by the end of the week. This afternoon Patrick and I did our grocery shopping for the week. Tonight I made Mexican Style Mac and Cheese. I also got ingredients to make an eggplant lasagna and lamb burgers at some point. The mac and cheese turned out excellent.

Mexican Style Mac and Cheese

  • 12 oz. of whole wheat elbow macaroni
  • 1/4 cup margarine
  • 1/4 cup flour
  • 2 cups fat free milk
  • 8 ounces Velveeta cheese made with 2% milk
  • 1 cup shredded fat free cheddar cheese
  • 1 can of black beans, rinsed and drained
  • 1/2 cup of salsa
  • 1/2 cup of red onion
  • 1/2 cup of green peppers
  • 1 garlic clove, minced
  • Multigrain tortilla chips (I really like “All Natural Tangos Multigrain & Flaxseed” tortilla chips) for garnish

Preheat oven to 350°F. Prepare macaroni according to package directions. Melt margarine in a large pan. Whisk flour into melted margarine to create a light roux (paste). Slowly whisk milk into the roux, whisking constantly to avoid lumps. Allow milk and roux to heat for about one minute, then begin adding the Velveeta. Continue to gently whisk the mixture until all Velveeta has melted, then add salsa and black pepper to taste. You can also add 2 scoops of unflavored protein powder to the cheese sauce at this time. In a skillet, saute onions, peppers, black beans, and garlic in olive oil.

Crush a serving of tortilla chips in a plastic bag and set aside.

Combine cooked macaroni, sauce, and mixture from the skillet. Once the macaroni, mixture and sauce are mixed together, transfer to a 9 x 13 baking dish. Cook uncovered for 25-30 minutes or until bubbly. Sprinkle 1 cup of shredded fat free cheddar cheese and crushed tortilla chips, return to oven until melted. Remove from oven and allow to cool for 5 to 10 minutes before serving.

Patrick's huge helping of dinner...and he's the smaller one of us?!

 

Before dinner we went to my parent’s house for a few hours to visit with my family. My parent’s just got back from Costa Rica a few days ago and they had some gifts for us. I got a beautiful bracelet made out of recycled wood, Costa Rican soap, a wooden owl, handmade butterfly magnets, and a bookmark in Spanish that says “The day of my trouble I will call, for thou wilt answer me. Psalm 86:7. God reached out to me from above, and his hand took me from the immense sea. Psalm 18:16.” While I was making dinner Patrick took down the Christmas decorations and the tree. It’s sad that it is a month after Christmas and we just got the stuff down. Tomorrow is back to work after a 3 day weekend off. I also have a staff meeting after work. Not sure what else we are doing tomorrow, might try to head to our new gym for a bit and at least walk around the track. I have a support group meeting on Wednesday that I am looking forward too. This week should be a good one. Hopefully full of some milestones.

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: ”The wings of hope carry us, soaring high above the driving winds of life.” ~Ana Jacob

 


Good old Ohio is back to snow again. On my way home from my counseling appointment people where driving 20 mph in a 55 mph zone, there was some snow of the roads, but not that bad in my opinion. Counseling was good, I got to get a lot of things out. I am excited to hear that my counselor is starting another support group, one that focuses on emotional well-being after surgery. I will definitely be attending that group. I decided to weigh in today after all. I am glad I did because I was actually able to maintain my weight, I was so afraid that I had gained 5 lbs or something and that was not the case at all. I am looking forward to hit my new gym soon. I think getting back into a regular life routine again will help. Once again I am freezing to death. I am so cold right now that I am in my bed typing under all my blankets and with my heated mattress pad, even with all that I am still freezing. I am so cold I am honestly considering staying in bed the rest of the evening. :) Spending the day off tomorrow shopping for a new car with Patrick and my dad, it’s always fun to spend money that you don’t have! Anyway, I am not due back to work until Monday so I am going to enjoy my weekend with Patrick, though I am not sure what we are going to do yet? I do know that cooking and/or baking will be involved. I made an awesome dish for dinner just using items I had on hand.

Shrimp and White Beans Over Brown Rice

  • 1 (16 ounce) package frozen cooked shrimp, thawed and tails removed
  • 1 (14 ounce) can cannellini beans, drained and rinsed
  • 1/2 cup diced red onion
  • 1 garlic clove, miniced
  • 1/2 cup of fat free feta cheese
  • Olive Oil
  • Salt Free Mrs. Dash Garlic and Herb Seasoning
  • Black pepper
  • Dill (optional)
  • 2 cups prepared brown rice

Saute shrimp that have been seasoned with black pepper, the herb seasoning, and dill with canellini beans, red onion, and garlic in Olive oil. Add feta cheese and heat the cheese through. Prepare rice to box directions, top rice with shrimp mixure, serve warm.

Shrimp and White Beans Over Brown Rice (Please note this is my husband's serving, not mine!)

Sadly I felt the need to say that the huge bowl of food was not mine, because many people out there assume that since I am obese that I eat huge amounts of food. Maybe one day, people won’t be so uneducated but for now, I must defend myself even before some jerk posts a comment. I am sorry if this blog is being to take a negative tone but I feel that I need to get out my frustrations about what comments that are said to me by writing on my blog. Blogging is healing and a good stress reliever for me.

Daily Inspirational Quote: ”Give thanks for what you are now, and keep fighting for what you want to be tomorrow.” ~Fernanda Miramontes-Landeros


I guess my little rant reached people yesterday because I had the most views ever on my blog yesterday. So far I have not had any negative comments on my Facebook or  blog today. To those out there who hate, I am much healthier than before especially mentally. I may not be hundreds of pounds down and probably never will be. I am starting to come to the realization that I will never be under 200 lbs. My body just won’t be losing that much. I will be happy to get under 300 lbs. Lately, I feel like I am not going to get to an “acceptable” weight for society, it might be acceptable for me, but never for the world. I will always be the “fat girl.” I think people of size need to be accepted in this society, we are people too and not everyone becomes fat because they eat McDonalds 3 times a day. Who am I kidding, American will be never acceptable “fat people.”  I gained hundreds of pounds to protect myself from being sexual harmed again. Luckily the love of my life looked past that and saw me for me. Most men aren’t like that, they want body not brains.

Sometimes I think that I should never have had the surgery since numbers wise I am a “failure” to others, but then I think about what it has done for me mentally. I have been battling depression and anxiety for over a decade and no longer on tons of pills for it is a HUGE accomplishment. I am not longer anxious about going to work or life in general. I rarely suffer from anxiety anymore unless I am being obsessive compulsive about something and my depression is now nonexistent.

Today Patrick and I got a new membership at a new gym nearby, I enjoyed my old gym but this new gym has an indoor track that I can train for the Couch to 5K now plus I got discount through my job. We are excited to start working out there and to my husband’s excitement there is an indoor pool there too. Maybe with the new gym membership I can get a few more pounds off. I think I have plateaued again. I have a counseling appointment tomorrow but I am choosing not to weigh in because I have not worked out lately and body acts like it doesn’t want to lose any weight unless I work out super hard at the gym for hours everyday and honestly that’s not very realistic for me. I will weigh in at the end of the month after getting back to the gym and go from there.

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: ”May you always have walls for the winds, a roof for the rain, tea beside the fire, laughter to cheer you, those you love near you,and all your heart might desire.” ~Irish Blessing

 


Once again I am feeling the cold all the time. I’m actually sitting in my bed right now with my many blankets on. The apartment always feels so cold, but the thermostat says it’s not. This morning and early afternoon was busy for us. We went to breakfast with some people from my support group, we had a good time and there was great discussion. Afterwards we stopped at the insurance company to pick up the check for the car. Lastly we went and got Patrick is new cell phone. He went with an HTC Droid Incredible 2. So Patrick’s doing well, got a new cell phone and he’s getting a new car soon. Afterward we got back this afternoon we have done nothing productive really, Patrick has been playing with his phone a bunch. I am planning on taping another YouTube video tomorrow, I plan talking about vitamins and minerals for the bariatric surgery patient. I am open for ideas for other videos too, if you have some you can email me at bariatricbeginnings@gmail.com. I might do an extra one on Tuesday evening as Patrick won’t be home so I have the apartment to myself to video tape.

To be honest with you I feel like I have fallen off the wagon a little bit, you know just hanging on to the back at this point, these last few weeks. It’s like I starved myself for my appointment so that I could weigh in for my surgeon at my 18 month follow up appointment with a number we were both happy with. I have only returned to the gym once these past few weeks, not like me at all, since I always go about 4 times a week. I had fully intended on going to the gym this week and even had a personal training appointment scheduled, but it was on the day Patrick had his car accident so I had to cancel so we could get him a rental car. Eating wise, I haven’t been eating terrible, but I have been eating worse that I am used to. I need to get back on the wagon if I am going to lose anymore weight. I have not weighed in since the 5th of January and I am not weighing in until the 30th of this month so I have time to get back to my regular routine and lose any pounds that I may have gained, I am going to weigh on my home scale tomorrow morning to see if I have done much damage. I guess the last two weeks have been weird with my work schedule starting to balance back out and all the stress that I have had with helping Patrick deal with the accident. I know he wasn’t injured but it could have been so much worse and I don’t know how I would ever go on in life without Patrick, he is my rock.

I am starting back on the wagon tomorrow and plan to be in the driver’s seat of that wagon soon. I still want to do the 5K in April, I started the training and then stopped. I am going to eat right again and I am going to keep exercising. I need to keep my body healthy if I was to become a mother soon.  So I need to start again and stay motivated, because this is not where my journey stops; it is merely a rest area.

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: ”To keep the body in good health is a duty…otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear.” ~Buddha


Sorry that I didn’t blog again last night, I was a little perturbed at modern technology last night. I was having extreme difficulties with a website (not this one) and got so angry I decided to give up on the computer for the night.  Anyway, I weighed in today at my counseling appointment. I am down another 3 1/2 lbs!!!!! That makes 11 lbs since starting with my new personal trainer a few weeks ago and 23 lbs since the end of July. 1 1/2 more lbs and I will be in the 340s, that makes me so happy, it makes the 290s sound obtainable for once. I can’t believe I will be in the 340s for Christmas!!!  I might even make it into the 330s for my 18 month follow up at the beginning of January.

This evening my father and I went to the yearly WLS support group Christmas party. I brought my sugar free, low fat, protein packed pumpkin dip, it was a big hit, there wasn’t much to bring back home. Patrick didn’t end up going with me because he is sick. He has a runny nose, a cough, and a sore throat. I hope he starts feeling better soon. It’s sucks to be sick around the holidays. Christmas is still a week and a half away so he has plenty of time to get better. Other than the weight loss not too much is new around here. My last yoga class is tomorrow night and I have a doctor’s appointment after work. Friday is thankfully the last day of the work week for me and I will head into the gym that afternoon to round out my week of exercise. That will be 4 days of exercise for me this week, that’s not too bad. During my counseling session today, I read a copy of one of my posts from a few weeks ago about how I got to be overweight, it was weird to read it out loud to someone, but also felt liberating at the same time. I am so glad I am in a better mental state this holiday season. Last Christmas I remember just putting my gifts that I had received and stuffing them into the closet. When we were packing to move in July, I found them and stuff that I didn’t even know I had. And last New Year’s I was in the psych ward. So this holiday season is definitively much better than last year and hopefully 2012 is a year of growth and hopefully a pregnancy! That is my main wish for the new year, to be able to feel my child move inside me. I can’t wait to become a mother, I hope I am as good a mother as my mom is to me.

Daily Inspirational Quote:  ”Just because you know where you want to end up doesn’t mean you will not be faced with obstacles, or challenges along the way. Instant success rarely happens.” ~Catherine Pulsifer


I am sorry that I wasn’t able to blog last night, but I was too busy clearing out my closet of clothes that were too big for me or that I didn’t wear, all together with a few of Patrick’s clothes we got rid of 9 bags. We also decided to get a head start on wrapping some of our Christmas gifts. It was back to work today. I love having my weekends off and I hate Mondays, at least by the time Tuesday rolls around I am in the mood to be at work until Thursday when I just want it to be Friday afternoon all ready! After work today Patrick and I went to the gym to workout for a little awhile. Then we ran a few errands because heading home for the evening. Tomorrow is an easy day, just going to work and heading to the gym for a bit. Wednesday, I am weighing in at my counseling appointment and also attending a support group Christmas party. I am bringing my sugar free pumpkin dip with apples that I shared with you a week or so ago. I am looking forward to other WLS patients trying it. I am hoping my surgeon is there so that I can show him how well I am doing now, if not I was see him in about a month for my 18 month follow up. I totally just realized that today has been 17 months since my surgery. I may not have lost a billion pounds since then, but I have gained self esteem, a much healthier outlook on food and life in general, my sex life back, and so much more. The weight I have lost I couldn’t have done without my surgery and I am thankful for it. Sure I wish I had a better mindset in the beginning but what’s over is over and I must make do with what I have now. I know I will keep losing, just more slowly than I would have in the beginning. I will make it work!

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it’s always your choice.” ~Wayne Dyer


I am so happy that it is Friday. This week felt especially long for some reason. Work was busy today. One more full week before winter break starts. I am looking forward to being off from December 22-January 3. I will probably do nothing but be lazy at home and also go to the gym. After work, Patrick and I ran a few last minute errands and went to the gym for my personal training appointment. My shoulders and arms felt like they were going to fall off for the past few hours. I think I worked them too hard. I could barely move them for awhile there. After taking a hot bath they felt much better. Patrick and I also finished cleaning our apartment up for his birthday party tomorrow. I will probably go to bed early again tonight since I can barely stay awake past 10pm anymore. Like I said last night, I have no energy anymore and my appetite is pretty much nonexistent. I have been eating  just one meal a day for the past week. I think it is from being on the Victoza. I get weighed on Wednesday, so we will have to wait until then to see if I have lost anything. I am afraid that it might not be much because of the fact I am not eating very much and haven’t worked out as aggressively as I have the past 2 weeks. This is mainly because I have no energy or willpower so days to overdo it anymore. I just need to tell myself to keep going when I feel this way.

I am hoping for a nice weekend. Patrick’s party is tomorrow afternoon and my family and his family will be there and then tomorrow night my younger brother and his girlfriend are going to come back over and play board games with us. Sunday, we are going over to my parent’s house to help decorate 1 of  their Christmas trees. Yes I said 1, my mom has about  7 trees that she puts up every Christmas and they all are really nice. They look a heck of a lot better than my tree does. My tree is a cheap pre-lit tree with tacky ornaments. I can’t wait until we have more money to get a nicer tree and match ornaments. Maybe next year.

I think I might have another non scale victory coming up, I think my feet got smaller again. It feels like my tennis shoes got bigger, but maybe it’s my imagination, I’ll have to try on a 9 1/2 next time I am at a store and see if they fit me or not. My 10s felt on the loose side this afternoon. Well I think my medications have finally kicked into full gear, I am getting kind of sleepy and have a busy day tomorrow, until then followers, goodnight.

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: ”Promise me you’ll always remember: You’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” ~A.A. Milne

 


I am sorry I was unable to blog last night. Patrick and I went to a concert last night and didn’t get home until around 12:30am. We went to the House of Blues in Cleveland to see Staind which I have mentioned before is my favorite band and I obsessed with many of their songs. They played my favorite song, “So Far Away” which I had featured in my blog about healing music. I wanted to cry while they were playing it. Please look up the lyrics and you will see what I mean about how the song describes how I feel right now in my life. One of the most awesome things of the night was that I was on my feet for over 4 1/2 hours at the concert and only sat down once for 5 minutes. I haven’t been able to stand that long in a very long time. Patrick and I had a great time.

Today is Patrick’s birthday. He turned 30 today! However he still acts and looks like he is 16! Anyway, after getting home from work this afternoon, Patrick and I met my parents and my little brother at the gym to work out. Afterwards, my parents took Patrick and I out to Patrick’s favorite Mexican restaurant for dinner. Patrick and I came home and have been relaxing ever since. We will probably call it an early night since we have been up since 1am the past two nights.

Tomorrow after work I have my monthly psychiatrist appointment and then have my Yoga class in the evening. I am excited for Saturday because we are throwing Patrick a birthday party. It should be fun.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATRICK!!!!!!!!!

 

Daily Inspirational Quote:  “Victory is sweetest when you’ve known defeat.” ~Malcolm S. Forbes


Sorry for the lack of a blog post last night. Patrick and I went to bed early because we were extremely tired. I weighed in today. I weighed in at 354 lbs! That is my lowest weight to date since surgery! Plus that was 6 lbs down since last week alone. Yesterday I had my counseling session and then went to the gym for my personal training session. Friday evening we went to a birthday party for a little bit, we didn’t stay long because I was feeling sick and really tired, I think it was my blood sugar again. My blood sugar today seemed fine, I didn’t experience any lows. This morning Patrick and I went and did our weekly grocery shopping before going out Christmas shopping with my parents. Now we are home for the evening doing laundry and Christmas cards. I had an awesome little non scale victory today, I was able through a turnstile at a store without having to turn sideways to fit through! I completely forgot about turnstiles and not being able to go through them comfortably in the past. I also wore my new size 24 pants, they were actually a bit bigger today than when I bought them a few days ago! On one of my on-line support groups there was discussion of people’s weight goals for the new year. That made me think of mine for the new year. I would like to be at 318 lbs by Jan. 5 for my 18th month follow up…that would be 100 lbs total…but I doubt that I will lose 36 pounds in a month but anything is possible I lost 6 lbs just in the last week. I would be happy to at least lose another 20 lbs by then. My goal is to be 270 lbs by my 2 year surgery anniversary. We shall see. Well, time to do my Christmas cards.

Take flight towards your goals!

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: “Success is simple. Do what’s right, the right way, at the right time.” ~Arnold H. Glasgow


Today was a very rough day for me mentally. Things at home are not going well for us at all right now. Patrick still has no job and it is freaking me out. All the places that he has applied to or visited tell him to come back after he passes his state test which he takes next week, it’s not like that’s a long way away but I am just getting anxious about being the only one working right now. I know things will work out for us in the end. I just hate uncertainty. We have also decided to apply to a few jobs in the field he went to school for, no use wasting that degree.

Anyway, enough depressing things for the evening. I had an awesome non scale victory today, I was able to fit into a size 24 pants. I can’t even remember the last time I was wearing a size 24. I was a size 32/34 before surgery. I can’t wait to wear them to a party on Friday and to my Staind concert next week! I can’t wait to weigh in on Friday at my counseling appointment, I am hoping that I have gone down. I am thinking I have because I have been eating better than ever before, exercising my ass off, started on medication that is suppose to help, and I dropped a pant’s size! Patrick and I went to the gym after I got home from work and did some cardio on the elliptical and some weight training for my shoulders, since my legs are so sore from yesterday. After work tomorrow I have a doctor’s appointment to get a very painful skin tag removed from my thigh, I am so happy that it is finally getting removed, it bothers me all day long. After that’s over I am heading to the gym for a personal training appointment.

I am so glad this day is over, it was a rough one mentally. Like I said, I know things will be better, I just have to wait for it to happen. Going to sign off for tonight and take a hot bath and relax with my husband for the rest of the evening. Go forward and conquer my friends.

 

Daily Inspirational Quote: ”You’re the only one who can make the difference. Whatever your dream is, go for it.” ~Magic Johnson



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